Its just that the thing is...

I feel that I could wait. I feel like I could save my serious feelings for this person I don't know. Its just so...arranged. So coincidental. It makes me feel like things happen for a reason. It also makes me feel like the things that people think happen for a reason, don't. And that there is this GIANT string of coincidences that make me feel some huge purpose that doesn't even exist to this other person. So all of these things remind me of him. So some doppelganger comes into carroll st with his hair and hat. What is that to anyone else? And so I think to myself that I could save my real feelings for this stranger. But of course I could. I don't know a single thing about him. He is absolutely the most mysterious person I could encounter. Waiting for him keeps me safe from having to risk anything real with anyone real. But if I did, if I were to enter into some sort of relationship with someone, I think that I would probably absolutely disregard it for the chance to know him.

Buh.

I just don't know how I could ever get any of this to him.